Hi. Thought this one out since yesterday kase medyo nakakaguilty ung ginawa ko, pero I realized maybe this can be of help to others.

LMP ko is October 2022 pa, my period is irregular so for me to miss my monthly dalaw is normal. First intercourse ko since my LMP was in December. Around the 3rd week of January, I was having weird feelings about my body and I started to think maybe I was pregnant since I already experienced it before. Lo and behold, my PT came back positive. And I didn't know what to do kase the person I was in contact with was just a fling, nothing serious. Nung una in denial pa ako with my condition, and also medyo pinag iipunan ko pa ung amount kase hindi naman mura ung mga kit. I was finally able to purchase cyto kit from Ms. Ella on March 18. Hinintay ko muna ung Sunday before ko magawa ung procedure kase may trabaho ako hanggang Saturday.

On the day of the procedure, grabe ung kaba ko kase no one really knows if it will be a success or what. There's also a possibility of danger health-wise especially ako, I'm on my 3rd+ month. Btw, nagawa ko na rin ito way back 2019 but that was a long time ago and hindi ko na maalala mga pangyayare before.

1st and 2nd dose everything's normal. Pain is 2/10.

3rd dose, upon insertion of the meds nakapa ko ung nauna kong nilagay which is 2nd dose. Immediately texted Ms. Ella and she said to continue the process because matagal daw talaga madissolve ang mga gamot. Btw, this time I was already having mild chills.

4th and 5th dose were the worst. Grabe na ung chills ko, nakajacket ako and may nakapatong ma kumot + super kapal na comforter. Also ang init init ko din because of lagnat.

Last dose, sobrang hirap na i-insert ng meds. Feel ko hindi ko na siya naiabot sa first placing ko sa mga naunag dose. But I just let it go. Medyo hindi na rin ako nagchi-chillsat this point but I was still high on my fever.

Now the waiting game starts. I was patiently waiting for 2am kase un ung time accdg. kay Ms. Ella na pwede ng bumangon. But around 12AM naramdaman kong pumutok na panubigan ko and I thought sunod-sunod na nun but I was wrong. Pagpunta ko ng banyo, naihi lang ako ng marami at nakita ko pa na may lumabas na buong meds from my keps. Binabalik ko pa nung una kaso di na kaya talaga. So since wala ng lumabas sakin after pumutok panubigan ko, naglakad ako at nagtatalon sa bahay. Maya-maya nafeel ko na may papalabas na kaya balik CR ako. Pag upo ko may nakita nakong nakalabas sa vaginal opening ko, nakalabas na ung isang paa ni baby. Nagulat ako kase I didn't expect na buo na features ng baby. Nakakanginig at nakakaguilty pero I have my reasons why I needed to do this.

Hirap na hirap ako iire ung buong katawan ni baby almost an hour ako umiire pero lower body lang ung naire ko. Until I decided to lie down first to regain some strength and walang ano-ano bigla nalang bumulwak ung bata while nakahiga ako sa kama. Kasama na ung placenta (I thini) pero medyo may naiwan pang umbilical cord sa loob. So it became really messy kase nasa kama ako and I had to run papuntang CR so blood was everywhere. Pagdating sa CR umire ulit ako para ma expel na ung umbilical cord, pero ayaw pa rin. What I did was binuhat ko ang isang timbang tubig and ayun nga lumabas na lahat.

Tbh, nakakaguilty lalo na nung nakita kong buo na ung bata. Grabe. Idk how to feel but I'm just so apologetic why I have to do this to my own flesh.

After the procedure, I had heavy bleeding until the morning. Also, nilagnat pa rin ako hanggang mag umaga. Today is just my 2nd day pero I believe that the termination is complete.

Thank you so much Ms. Ella for always rescuing me. You may not know that but its true.

Advice sa mga kagaya ko, wag niyo ng patagalin pa kase kayo din un mahihirapan. Like what happened to me.

Diretso na ba sya lumabas sis given the fact na una yung paa?

Diretso na ba sya lumabas sis given the fact na una yung paa?

Yes sis. Nagstruggle ako ng bongga kasi nauna ung isang paa palang, hirap na hirap ako di ko alam paano iire. Buti nalang lumabas nalang din ng kusa.

Yes sis. Nagstruggle ako ng bongga kasi nauna ung isang paa palang, hirap na hirap ako di ko alam paano iire. Buti nalang lumabas nalang din ng kusa.

Im happy that you made it sis. Oorder palang ako today kay miss Ella. Hopefully everything will turn out well din sa akin.