1st wk of October. Nagsex kami ni Guy, and he's my friend. (Friends with benefits?) I think yes, i mean defintly yes!
Pano ko nalamang buntis ako?
So ganito yun ..
After nung may nangyari sa amin ni Guy. Wala talaga akong idea na buntis ako. Why? Kasi, nakita ko pang di nya pinasok yung sperms nya sa akin well let's just say "withdrawal".
Normal days lang, pero napansin ko, kaya ko nang kumain ng 3 cup of rice. Well normal nman skin yung gsto kong matulog always, tapos palaging pagod. Tapos di ako nkkranas ng morning sickness. Mejo matagal pa naman yung period ko nun kaya kalmado pa ko.
So, here comes na meron akong inattenand na event. For me to enjoy that certain event i decided to take my PT. Lampas 2wks na din nman kasi nung may nanyri smin ni Guy kaya mddetect nyun. First PT, may lumabas na 1 dark purple line & another super faint 1 purple line. Nataranta ako kya bumili ako ng another PT but different brand since cheap lng na PT binili ko. Second PT ko 1 line lng nmn yung lumabas. Kaya sa isip ko something error lng yung nanyri kaya kumalma nko.
After 3 days. Nasa event nako' pero lagi akong matamlay. Di ako mapakali kaya nag take ako ng another PT (and this time yung expensive brand na). UNEXPECTEDLY, AND I WAS SHOCKED nung nakita kong klarong 2 LINES na!
I go to the hospital imeddtly to confirm through a blood test and it turns out a very confirmed POSITIVE that i'm pregnant.
I contact my guy immdtly and talk about if anong gagawin. And yes! That moment, honestly nasa isip ko tlaga yung abortion.
I'm 21, yes nkpg graduate na ko, yes meron ng job pero di pa ko ready mging mother. Lalo na't aalis ako next month. And my family is going a tough times right now so, yokong madgdgan yun.
Both of us, has no idea about abortion. Kaya we plan na ipgpptuloy nlng nmin tong pgbubuntis ko and we're planning to get married. Pero , sobrang conflict kase nag aaral palang sya. At pareha kaming may mga ka Long distance relationship gf & bf.
(Yes! Aminado akong napakasama namin)
Yun na, di na ko mapakali sa mga araw na dumadaan. Kelangan na tlagang matanggal to' kaya i decided to tell it in one of my friend na boy (na alam kong may idea about abortion).
So he suggested about cortal w/ coke. Pero BELIEVE ME ! di effective nag ccramps lng ako. And he suggested also yung dahon na sobrang pait, pero nung ginawa nmin yan he requested na mgccheck in kmi ng room ksi duduguin dw ako ng madami sa procedure na ggwin nmin. That time, i have no choice kasi npka desperada ko na. And the worst is part of the procedure e kelangan dw may "sex" na part. Dun ako biglang natakot, sabi ko ayoko. Sabi nya kelangan daw yun tapos tinatakot nya nko na pg di nmin ginawa to di mttangal to.
And yes nag sex kami and believe it or not DI KO GINUSTO YUNG NANGYARI SAMIN.
Ilang araw akong tulala nun after that. Yung masaklap pa di naman naging effective.
Naiyak na lang ako twing naaalala ko na i feel harassed. Naiinis ako at galit ako sa srili ko !! Sobra consequence tlga yung nrransan ko.
Lumilipas ulit yung mga araw. Sobrang lutang ko na, wala nako sa sarili, at palaging tulala. Tapos kinakausap ko nlg yung baby ko prang napamahal nko. Tapos nkkramdam nko na prang yoko na ipatanggal
si baby pero ang dami ko ng gamot na ininum for sure di mgging normal pglabas nito so,
Nag search ako sa google at napunta ako sa website nato. I don't have an idea if legit basta tinext ko lng agad yung number at ngreply nmn agad. I decided na lumpit na sa ama nung baby. Para humingi ng pera since sobrang laki numg bbyran 5k. At wala pang kasiguraduhan yan kasi di ko alam if legit ba basta binyaran ko agad and good thing after 2days nakuha ko kagad ung gamoy at bingyan ako ng instrction through messenger. and MGA SIS ! 100% LEGIT si miss ella.
*miss ella (09152858517)
*MIFE KIT ginamit ko. It cost 5,000
* 3 weeks nakong buntis nun, nung ginawa ko yung procedure.
* 2 days yung procedure. MAKE SURE TO STRICTLY FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS!
* since 3wks preg plng ako nun kaya di pa embryo yung lumabas. Yung lumabas is, It looks like sticky na buong flesh w/ dots of bloods na kasing laki ng 5peso coin. (I search it in google kya alam ko na yun na yun) i also send the pic with ms ella and she confirm na yun na yun.
*yes! After med. Abortion sumakit likod ko balakang ko and sometimes nkkramdam dn ako ng sakit ng puson.
* almost 6 days din akong heavy bleeding.
After that 6 days. Nag sspotting na lang ako. But sometimes may bleeding prin on and off pero di malakas. All in all i suffer 5weeks of spotting. But after that white blood nlg.
*after 2weeeks of my procedure nag PT na ko tapos NEGATIVE na.
*di na ko nkapag pa check up sa OB kahit gstong gsto ko na. Kaso wala nkong pera kaya. Dasal ako ng dasal.
* and thank you!!!! 8 weeks after my procedure. Dinatnan nako ng period ko.
I'M NOT HAPPY. I'M GUILTY, AND SAD. YAN NA YUNG DADALHIN KONG FEELING SA BUHAY KO DAHIL SA GINAWA KO.
YES NAPAKA SAMA KO AT AMINADO AKO DUN. I DON'T DESERVE THIS LIFE.
BUT I DECIDED TO CONFESS MY SINS AND REGRET ALL THE THINGS THAT IVE DONE. AND I THANK GOD THAT HIS GRACE IS BIGGER THAN MY SINS. I WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN.
NAGSORRY DIN AKO SA BOYFRIEND KO WITHOUT MENTIONING AND CONFESSING ABOUT SA NANGYARI KASE DI NYA ALAM. TAPOS SINABI KONG HIWALAYAN NYA KO. KASI MAKASALANAN AKO. PERO HE DECIDED NA MGUMPISA KAMI ULIT FROM OUR UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP , MGUUMPISA KMI ULIT NA SI GOD NA ANG CENTER NG RELATIONSHIP NMIN.
AND I REALLY THANK GOD. NOT BECAUSE DI NKO PREGNANT. I THANK GOD THAT HE STILL FORGIVES ME AFTER ALL THAT I'VE DONE. THANK JESUS FOR GIVING ME ANOTHER LIFE AND ANOTHER CHANCE.
That's all !
If you have questions, and u need someone to talk to. Been there, done that! I know how it feels, i'm not here to judged you. I'm here to help you!