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[quote name="Marue" post="28230" timestamp="1495822039"] 2 days ago i want to share my emotional pain. maybe youll change ur mind maybe not. iim 19 i have nothing , d ako nakakapag college 4th yr na sana ako TOURISM but my mom died , and done nako sa mife kit im 5 months pregnant going to 6 months . sa naranasan ko super sakit na halos mamamatay ka na sa sakit and what hurts the most? yung makita ko yung baby na nilabas ko buhay pa sya umiyak pa sya and i heard him and nagulat ako kung alam ko lang na ganun na pala sya d ko nalang sana ginawa yun as in wala akong idea na ganun na pala sya kasing laki nya ang shoe box . im crying and carry him safe and saying im sorry. may dahilan dn ako . ang dahilan ko is hindi para sa sarili ko . this is for him. ayoko na lumaki sya na panget ang magging buhay niya , hes father is a dumbass d sya kayang panagutan and me? i have nothing . ayoko mabuhay sya at maexperience nyaang buhay nya ng tulad sakin , like theres a judgemental people around me, full of hate , ang gusto ko ibawi para sa kaniya? yung lahat mamahalin siya. yung d ko naranasan na maganda sa buhay ay gusto ko iparanas sa kaniya at yung mga naranasan kong hindi maganda sa buhay ay ayaw ko iparanas sa kaniya. i cried and sabi ko "anak pangako mo sakin na babalik ka ah.. babalik ka.. ginawa ko to kasi hindi pako handa ayoko maranasan mo ang mga narranasan ko ngayon sa buhay.. ayoko.. mahal na mahal kita babalik ka magttapos ako maghhanap ng magandang trabaho at pagktapos nun? magkkaron ka ng magandang buhay . like an ordinary person .. ayoko ng mapapagaya ka sakin .. ayoko. lalayo tayo dto .." btw im not poor nor rich. its just kailangan ko muna maging independent yung d ako buntis for HIM yes him hes a baby boy makkita mo na gender nya. everythings changed when the first time i saw him. dati wala akong pangarap sa buhay im just nothing goals? bucket list? wala . but now pangarap ko? makabawi sa mga tao na minahal at naninawala sakin sobra . but they dont exist here on earth anymore .. my baby and my mom. sorry i shared my emotional pain kase for me? mas masakit ang emotional pain than physical pain kahit muntik nako mamatay sa physical pain . think about this carefully. i dont want u to feel regret, sad , angry. 7 months? makikita mo na buong buo na sya like a baby and its really big. but i hope yung personal reason maiintindihan ng baby mo kung d pa nga ba nya karapatan mabuhay or what. im not bringin you down . its your own risk girl. if u decided padin mag abort i respect ur decision . malalim nga siguro dahilan . i dont judge. i understand . we have our own reason but i want to share mine how miserable my life is , full of hate living in the world of hate. and im not ready to show him whats the world looks like i dont want him to live na hate lang mattanggap nya because of ME. my whole family really dont like me kase yung mom ko sakin nag focus ako yung pinakamahal niya favorite nya and they start to hate me , bring me down , judge me. Kaya since birth? nakita ko lang is hate . and now? i have nothing because of hate pero yung nagmmahal sakin na isa which is my mom is so worth it pero walang forever. d mo masasabi ang buhay ayokong mamatay na buhay pa anak ko at d maganda buhay thats why ive made my decision to abort it pero iba talaga when u see him.. btw i burry my baby boy sa likod ng bahay namin wala nakakaalam madaling araw ko sya ginawa and i wrap my favorite top sa baby ko . nilagay ko sya sa paper bag at ayoko ng matakpan ng lupa ang mukha niya. mahal na mahal ko siya everythings change. now im starting to live naramdaman kong buhay papala ako at may dapat gawin sa mundo and thats for my baby [img]http://womensblog.org/public/style_emoticons/#EMO_DIR#/smile.png[/img] . to have a happy life .445[/quote]